Recently I’ve been motivated to take action about my weight and health. And by action, I don’t mean going to the doctor to see if they can do anything to compensate for my supreme laziness and sugar addiction. The first motivation came in the form of my right knee becoming more mobile in a bad way. It feels unstable and the cap keeps moving around. While hEDS may be contributing a little to it, I think it mostly has to be weight. At the very least, I can’t definitively say one or the other without removing the weight and observing the effect. So that’s what I’m trying to do. Lose the weight; save the knee!
Easier said than done, right? Well, yes, but mostly because I’m addicted to sugar (like, really addicted. I get cravings when I don’t have it and will get antsy until I can have more) and I find that a lot of approaches to weight loss are so all-or-nothing that they don’t work for me. I am one of those people who becomes depressed, resentful and practically in pain if something is restricted. I become anxious at the thought of never being able to have X, Y, or Z again in my life. So I’m not doing that. Instead of hopping right into a keto diet and severely restricting carbs, or trying to do purely clean eating and processed foods are no longer allowed, I’m just trying to:
- eat more whole foods or dishes made from whole foods
- cook at home to have control over what goes into the things I choose to eat
- drink more water to minimize false hunger signals
- wait before indulging any cravings to give myself time to rethink them or choose an alternative
- move every day
- go to bed and wake up earlier so that I have time to accomplish things (dog walk, eating breakfast) before work
So far it seems to be going well. I’ve lost about 10 pounds since I weighed myself on October 4th. I’m not doing each item perfectly, but I’m doing them often enough that it’s making a difference in my weight and how I feel. It may be too early to call it, but last night I also noticed that the Hidradenitis Suppurative lump in my right armpit (where part of my skin has disappeared 🙁 ) seems to have gone down. Since it hasn’t gone down after an entire summer of being on Doryx and the only change is in my food and activity level, it’s hard not to draw a line between healthy eating and lowered autoimmune response. I’m trying not to get my hopes up since it could be wishful thinking to feel that it’s gone down… but I’ll admit that my hopes are still getting involved.
Since I do have a sweet tooth and lately I’ve been craving double layer chocolate chip cookies with gobs of icing in between in a fun design, I decided to try Halo Top ice cream last night. It’s a low calorie, high protein ice cream which uses a blend of sugar, sugar alcohols, and stevia to keep the sweetness on point. I’ve only tried one, but I was really impressed with the flavor. It was Mochi Green Tea, and it was a no brainer choice since I love mochi and green tea is one of my favorite ice cream flavors. It was pretty awesome. It isn’t as rich, thick, or heavy as a Ben & Jerry’s, but the entire pint was around 320 calories. You could also spoon it out of the container immediately since there is less stuff in it to freeze. I easily ate over half of it, and that isn’t normal ice cream behavior for me. I assume the lack of fat kept it from filling me up, but it was truly tasty. Around the 2/3 mark it started to taste a little too sweet, so that’s where I stopped for the evening. I was pleasantly surprised, overall. I wouldn’t want to get in the habit of having ice cream every night, but I also won’t feel guilty for having some. And yes, there were real mochi bits in the ice cream!
Update: Turns out the sugar replacement in Halo Top is really bad for my IBS. I got quite sick from eating them and decided to throw out my last few containers after confirming they were the cause. Screw you, erythritol!