A glimpse into the life of a hoarder. . .
Having a lot of stuff, a lot of clutter, can itself lead to buying more things. You’d think having a lot would keep you from buying more. What could you need? You already own it all, right?
Maybe. Who knows? 90% of the stuff I own is either inaccessible, because it’s lost behind the 10% I can get to, or it’s not where I’d think to look for it. Continue Reading
This morning I finished listening to the audiobook of Elysium Fire by Alastair Reynolds. It’s a Science Fiction story set in Reynolds’ Revelation Space universe. It was read by the wonderful John Lee, a Welsh voice actor whose voice and accent I find incredibly soothing. I think I first listened to a Peter F. Hamilton story because it was read by Lee, and Hamilton’s Commonwealth universe is now one of my favorites. I enjoyed Lee’s reading of Elysium Fire, as well, and thought he handled the variety of voices in a way that was distinctive without being grating or jarring. Continue Reading
Today is the first day I am treating my newly-diagnosed ADHD with medication. It was recommended by my therapist, who I am going to continue seeing for CBT, and prescribed by my primary care doctor after discussing the recommendation with him. He’s prescribed 30 days of Vyvanse 20mg and then wants to see me again before continuing or increasing the dosage. My doc and I are on the same page here. Take it slow, watch how it goes. It wasn’t required, but I decided to have my blood pressure checked every week so I don’t get any surprises. Continue Reading
I’ve had a lot to consider since my last blog post. This hoarding thing has taken over so much of my life (which I suppose is part of what makes it “hoarding” and not “clutter”), that I decided to see a therapist about it. My goal was to find out if this truly was Hoarding Disorder and what I could do to start making a difference since my desire for change is often more theoretical than something I can act upon when it matters. I’m glad I went, because it seems there’s a broader issue going on that I wouldn’t have put together on my own. Continue Reading
First post of 2018! In a wonderfully coincidental turn, my first wound checkup of the year showed me to be so healed that I shouldn’t need any more follow ups. After this week, I shouldn’t even need to wear a bandage covering. Which means I can take regular baths again! Yessss. Continue Reading
Tomorrow is the first day of a new year. I’m hoping for a better year politically and socially. 2017 wasn’t disastrous on the personal level, but it had a lot of ups and downs. I had several “oh shit, shopaholic” moments, but I’ve also recognized I have a problem and am trying to change these negative habits. I’m starting a spending fast in January to save money to pay off debt. I want to dedicate an entire post to the concept, but essentially I commit to not spending any money on unnecessary items. For a year. What I deem necessary is up to me, and I may allow myself a nice coffee once a week, but giving myself too many exceptions defeats the whole point of the fast. Continue Reading
As I’ve started planning my novel (yes, I’m a Planner), I’ve found it helpful to draft a timeline to keep track of when important events happen in relation to each other. I also hope that it helps with pacing and plot advancement. Yesterday, as I was doing some hardcore thinking about my story, I realized that some of the events I want to include need an extended timeline to build them up. For example, the main character may have a hobby she becomes talented at that then becomes a point of conflict with a parent. So I began drafting a multi-story timeline. Elements mentioned in passing when we first meet our protagonist later become conflicts that develop her character. Continue Reading
It’s been a while since I posted a health update, so I think it’s time to check in. When I was diagnosed with several “rare” problems, I googled for information and experiences to try to understand what was happening to me. I like to think that I’m providing the kind of info I would have liked to find back then. (Rare is in quotes because I feel they are not so much rare as they are under diagnosed.)
My pilonidal cystectomy wound is healing well. After being taken off of the wound vac, we began packing it with Aquacel Ag. The silver in it is supposed to minimize bacteria. It’s worked really well for me. My wound started at a depth of around 5.5cm. I’m now at less that 1cm. Continue Reading
I had a minipiphany (mini-epiphany) today while doing some world-building for my current project. I discovered that world-building can lead to plot development. I have a habit of creating worlds and characters I love but being unable to figure out any interesting plots in which to use them. There was no objective for my character to work toward and no conflict in their way. Today I finally started jotting down the world-building ideas that had been rattling around in my head for days, and it lead to a eureka plot moment. I know the conflict! I know the goal! My character has something to DO. Continue Reading
So I’ve rebranded my blog to “a write mess” and updated the URL to match my cross-social media presence (@sharisaurus). For various reasons, I’ve separated my online and real life identities for a very long time. Since it’s amazingly easy now to match up the two, I’ve decided to embrace the simplicity of one online presence (with various other channels/pages for my projects). Continue Reading