A glimpse into the life of a hoarder. . .
Having a lot of stuff, a lot of clutter, can itself lead to buying more things. You’d think having a lot would keep you from buying more. What could you need? You already own it all, right?
Maybe. Who knows? 90% of the stuff I own is either inaccessible, because it’s lost behind the 10% I can get to, or it’s not where I’d think to look for it. Continue Reading
Today is the first day I am treating my newly-diagnosed ADHD with medication. It was recommended by my therapist, who I am going to continue seeing for CBT, and prescribed by my primary care doctor after discussing the recommendation with him. He’s prescribed 30 days of Vyvanse 20mg and then wants to see me again before continuing or increasing the dosage. My doc and I are on the same page here. Take it slow, watch how it goes. It wasn’t required, but I decided to have my blood pressure checked every week so I don’t get any surprises. Continue Reading
I’ve had a lot to consider since my last blog post. This hoarding thing has taken over so much of my life (which I suppose is part of what makes it “hoarding” and not “clutter”), that I decided to see a therapist about it. My goal was to find out if this truly was Hoarding Disorder and what I could do to start making a difference since my desire for change is often more theoretical than something I can act upon when it matters. I’m glad I went, because it seems there’s a broader issue going on that I wouldn’t have put together on my own. Continue Reading
First post of 2018! In a wonderfully coincidental turn, my first wound checkup of the year showed me to be so healed that I shouldn’t need any more follow ups. After this week, I shouldn’t even need to wear a bandage covering. Which means I can take regular baths again! Yessss. Continue Reading
Tomorrow is the first day of a new year. I’m hoping for a better year politically and socially. 2017 wasn’t disastrous on the personal level, but it had a lot of ups and downs. I had several “oh shit, shopaholic” moments, but I’ve also recognized I have a problem and am trying to change these negative habits. I’m starting a spending fast in January to save money to pay off debt. I want to dedicate an entire post to the concept, but essentially I commit to not spending any money on unnecessary items. For a year. What I deem necessary is up to me, and I may allow myself a nice coffee once a week, but giving myself too many exceptions defeats the whole point of the fast. Continue Reading
It’s been a while since I posted a health update, so I think it’s time to check in. When I was diagnosed with several “rare” problems, I googled for information and experiences to try to understand what was happening to me. I like to think that I’m providing the kind of info I would have liked to find back then. (Rare is in quotes because I feel they are not so much rare as they are under diagnosed.)
My pilonidal cystectomy wound is healing well. After being taken off of the wound vac, we began packing it with Aquacel Ag. The silver in it is supposed to minimize bacteria. It’s worked really well for me. My wound started at a depth of around 5.5cm. I’m now at less that 1cm. Continue Reading
So I’ve rebranded my blog to “a write mess” and updated the URL to match my cross-social media presence (@sharisaurus). For various reasons, I’ve separated my online and real life identities for a very long time. Since it’s amazingly easy now to match up the two, I’ve decided to embrace the simplicity of one online presence (with various other channels/pages for my projects). Continue Reading
I’m on a kick of improving the things that I’m dissatisfied with in my life. So many things out of our direct control can cause stress and pain. But right now my life is in a really good place… except for the problems I’ve created. Sure, I have job stress and my anxiety, but most of my stress comes from situations I could change, but don’t.
What are these situations? Continue Reading
I recently made a list of the activities that are most important to me. I didn’t add things like “spend time with my husband” and “cuddle my dogs” because those are so integral to my life that I don’t need to organize them. They happen every day and are the constants that keep me going. I’m talking about things like writing regularly with a goal of publication, drawing my webcomic, and getting my cheese channel off the ground. Perhaps not so coincidentally, they are all creative pursuits in one way or another. Continue Reading
The weather has really turned colder in West Virginia in the last couple weeks. I’ve started my hibernation season in which I avoid any rooms in my house that don’t have heating. I certainly miss central heating. My kitchen, cruelly cold with its tile floor, is used as little as possible in the winter. Home-cooked meals decrease and dishes are washed on an as-needed basis. I picked up some slippers on Black Friday (my one purchase) after I realized I’d have to repeat a day of standing in the kitchen on Christmas. Thanksgiving was not kind on my body, but at least I can have memory foam comfort next holiday.
My dogs have been enjoying the holiday. Since I’ve been keeping my room warm while I’m home and Kenzie gets to stay inside, they’ve both been curling up on my bed. Right now Kenzie is woofing in her sleep at my feet and Bo is curled up under a blanket at my side. I made sure his nose was uncovered, but he seems to be happy in his little burrow. Continue Reading